Paradox? Dilemma?

To get a job on your own, and spend your income on anything you want that your parents won't usually allow you is great. But on the other hand, thinking about graduating and getting a job... or not getting one, and bills, and rent fees and livelihood fees is mightily scary.

To life eternally is boring--at one point you just get bored of everything even if new things keep on coming up. But on the other hand, to die is boring too--what will I do if I die? Thinking about death itself is scary.

To get a job on something that you like/love to do is awesome. But thinking about how there's a possibility you'll get bored and start hating what you're doing, that too is scary.

To think about going back to high school, kick back and relax and not have to worry about graduating/failing a module/subject because you know you'll pass anyway [unless you're THAT stupid] is nice. But on the other hand, why would someone want to be back at being forced in doing something you don't like, or get bullied?

To want to fangirl over a male character or a normal guy or a J-Rocker is normal. But then I feel guilty.

Oh well. I guess at this point I should just kick back and relax and stop worrying so much. Rilakkuma is my new hero now.