two

There are two things I currently want badly right now. Of course, there are loads and tons of things that I want, for I am a greedy human. But currently, at the very second I'm typing this with a tired mind and hurting head, I have only two things I want badly right now.

And obviously being me, those things are obvious and crystal clear. Time after time, after time. Time and time again, through pages and sheets and sketchbooks and entries, the answers are always the same. Always.

It's easy. It's just difficult because it has to be given by a specific someone. And that someone seem to not notice.

Just let me be one of those shitheads with selective hearing for now. I'll slap myself on the right cheek and get back to my feet soon.



I miss the life before this. Where my entries were more frequent and more cheerful.

I don't know what happened, so don't ask because I too, have no answer to that.


PS: thank you... for at least trying. For showing that you, indeed, care. But I am an egoistic child and therefore I refuse to be recognized that I recognized.

PPS: by the way... in case you are reading this, there are more than one way to talk to me. You know all of them.